I overdosed on some pills around 2AM and waking up at 6AM for school I was very ill. Blurred vision, couldn't walk straight, horrible stomach ache, could barely talk, etc. That was a few weeks ago. Today I want to do it again. Neither then or now do I totally want to kill myself. Just want stuff to happen to me...I don't know why. And I have a friend who I told about it to, and I told her I was sorry and I'd never do anything like that again. But yet it's like I can't hold myself back. I'll probably wait till later tonight like last time, but I am pretty sure I want to do it. Maybe my parents will realize this time that I did that to myself.