So far today I have: Hurt myself Cried Disasociated Have no memory of the morning and keep thinking it's Saturday Woke up every hour last night from nightmares & sweats Thought about suicide Have vague memory of going to the shop, not clear though. Have a sore throat and can't talk Pain in my stomach & back Now ask yourself WHY anyone SHOULD carry on like this, not wether it's right or wrong. I've been like this for TEN DAYS now and I have at leased another SIX to go before my period comes. There's no point in going to the doctor because I could not take anything anyway, I do not have enough money to pay the prescription charge regularly for an open ended ammount of time. I don't even know if I will be able to afford transport for the counselling I sposed to be going to soon, I can't take the bus because I'm too ill to leave the house and walk long distances round lots of people on my own atm. I'm set up to fail which ever way I look at it.