If I get into an argument with one of my family members they end using my depression and problems against me. It hurts so much that they would do that. I trusted them I'm now constantly being put down by my younger siblings. But why should they look up to me? I'm nothing but a big mess. Even my parents are starting to feel weary, it's like they think I'm doing this for attention. If they think I'm pretending, I'll show them how well I can pretend. I'm current sitting in the bathroom with a knife and seriously considering it.