Recently I've been having overwhelming urges to not live. I started cutting again and don't eat much. I've lost a lot of weight. I know I won't actually go through with a suicide attempt but I have no will to actually take care of myself. I know if I continue not eating it will eventually kill me but I can't seem to find an appetite enough to eat enough. As each day goes on I know I might go past my not wanting to try and kill myself and might actually go through with it.