I don't know how to feel positive. I'm not religious and I don't believe in supernatural things... But my life just feels so scripted. It's like a soap opera. I never get better because just when it's good... Worse things happen and the good turns to bad because I have lost it. I end up trusting people and just when I have a friend or a partner, they turn on me. Even the people I truly think will never turn on me... I just don't trust anyone anymore... I try, I always try, but in the end they betray me in really bad ways.