Every day is a struggle. I got back from my vacation today. I had gone to Orlando to visit with some friends and go to Disney for the first time, but i had to leave early to go to work. I spent a few hours at my mom's house just so I could sleep. on the way to her house I stopped to get gas, and found that none of my cards were working. Apparently the companies decided to freeze my account because I was traveling and they were unaware of the fact. I did call and try to get this straightned out, but the systems were updating. I begged my mom to let me borrow her computer for two minutes, just so I could check on some things, and she declined in a most nasty fashion. Long story short, i'm no longer welcome to call (my number is blocked) or return to that home. I truly don't know why I bother even trying to salvage a relationship with my parents. I have dealt with so much growing up. My innocence was stolen shortly after my mother married the jackass stepfather of mine. I guess it seems like the proper thing to do? I'm having so many problems with work. With the economy so bad, finding other work is hopeless and as it is I'm working over 80 hours a week just to make ends meet. (My friends pretty much paid for my vacation...the only reason I went). I'm burnt out, exhausted, and can't take any days off without throwing my clients for a loop. I've made so many stupid mistakes and I'm paying for them now. I can't keep paying though. It's like I have no one to turn to. I feel as if I don't have a single friend in the area I can talk to. Every call I've made has gone to voicemail. Neither of my roommates are home and in fact, one was rather nasty when I did manage to get a hold of her. She may be moving out and did not let me know if she'll be coming back. it's just so much. I know everything I say seems so silly, but it makes so much sense to me. I don't know what to do. Ending it all seems almost wise. I wouldn't have to bear all this pain anymore. I could escape.