Two years tomorrow since the very worst day of my life. I'm not going to go into detail about that day. All I'm going to say is that it was basically the start of my more severe problems.
It all gets worse around this time. The insomnia, the anxiety, the OCD, the panic attacks, the self harm, the suicidal thoughts and depression...everything. And it's made worse this year, for I have no medication to distract me from my physical pain as well.
The worse part of this is the voices. I used to ignore them, dismiss them as just a figure of my imagination. But I can see now that they are very, very real. They're screaming in my head.
I just want it all to stop :cry:
It all gets worse around this time. The insomnia, the anxiety, the OCD, the panic attacks, the self harm, the suicidal thoughts and depression...everything. And it's made worse this year, for I have no medication to distract me from my physical pain as well.

The worse part of this is the voices. I used to ignore them, dismiss them as just a figure of my imagination. But I can see now that they are very, very real. They're screaming in my head.
It's all your fault!
Kill yourself!
I know it's all my fault and I know that I deserve to die, but do I really need to be reminded of it every single day of my life?Kill yourself!
I just want it all to stop :cry: