I dont know what to write right now or how to even express my emotions or thoughts for which I apologize. The only thing I can say is that the stress is building up and I cant take it anymore.... I dont know what to do I have nobody to talk to and this seems to be the only place to vent my suicidal thoughts. I feel like I am in free fall right now and nothing can stop me from dying. Everything seems pointless I have lost for what I have cared for.