I can't write stories at all anymore. That used to be the thing that got me through tough times, and now every time I go to write it's like my hands and brain cease to function. Same with art, which has become especially problematic since I'm taking an art class right now and need to be able to do shit like sit down and paint something for a project.
I can't do assignments well anymore. My brain just kind of...floats endlessly in my head and it seems to almost get worse when I try to do something productive.
Just now I'm freaking out over having to record a video that's not even a minute and a half long of myself discussing something I'm passionate about for a class assignment. Every time I press record I freeze and start dissociating. It's been two and a half hours. The video is due tomorrow and I've had a literal month to do it.
And before I get some wiseass commenting "well you can you're just not applying yourself" or some such garbage:
I've been trying. For MONTHS.
I'm. Not. Getting. ANYWHERE.
I can't physically apply myself to this shit anymore.
What the hell am I meant to do about this?
I can't do assignments well anymore. My brain just kind of...floats endlessly in my head and it seems to almost get worse when I try to do something productive.
Just now I'm freaking out over having to record a video that's not even a minute and a half long of myself discussing something I'm passionate about for a class assignment. Every time I press record I freeze and start dissociating. It's been two and a half hours. The video is due tomorrow and I've had a literal month to do it.
And before I get some wiseass commenting "well you can you're just not applying yourself" or some such garbage:
I've been trying. For MONTHS.
I'm. Not. Getting. ANYWHERE.
I can't physically apply myself to this shit anymore.
What the hell am I meant to do about this?