I'm so ridiculous. I've pushed absolutely everyone away. No one has any idea and I just come off as this cold, ridiculous bitch.
Maybe that's just who I am.
And maybe that's who I need to be, otherwise the world doesn't make sense or something.
It scares the crap out of me to think that's who I'm supposed to be, one of those people who no one really knows. And then one day is gone.
How meaningless.
I know this'll sound ridiculous but maybe.
I am too meaningless.
Idk. I don't really care.
Basically the point of this is to say that probably death=me soon.
Well hopefully.
Like tonight?
Just need to grow some balls
Maybe that's just who I am.
And maybe that's who I need to be, otherwise the world doesn't make sense or something.
It scares the crap out of me to think that's who I'm supposed to be, one of those people who no one really knows. And then one day is gone.
How meaningless.
I know this'll sound ridiculous but maybe.
I am too meaningless.
Idk. I don't really care.
Basically the point of this is to say that probably death=me soon.
Well hopefully.
Like tonight?
Just need to grow some balls