I do admit that I am compulsive. The last failed attempt happened after pain treatment failed. The next attempt will not be a crisis. I'm 100% sure that there will be no crisis the next time. I had enough suffering. I strongly feel that people have the choice to live or die. If I want to die, I should not have that option. However, I also feel there should be some level of a standard. Someone in pain with little hope of change. A completely healthy person is another issue. But, this is the issue. What determines a healthy person? Serious mental illness is one that needs to be considered based on each case. The bottom line is that person should have the right to determine when it's time to go. In my case, I have physical issues that will require lifelong pain management. Mentally, I don't have control over the severe depression and other brain related illness that runs in the family, but there is a limit to what I can take. I've endured multiple hospitalizations and medication trials and years of therapy. Depression is painful. I do wish to go and want the right to do so. Suicide is an option.