It's a matter of when. Just based on purely logical, reason facts, I won't be alive much longer. It's just a matter of when. I have my ideas for ways to make it happen, I just have to put them into action and hope they work. I have a bday in about 23 days, so maybe I'll wait till just after then. I have nothing. Huge debt, no family I care about, No affection from another human being and no future. I've caused enough trouble and money loss, I just need to cut everyone's losses.