I am an insomniac. The mind consumes my attention. Thoughts of why flood my consciousness. People always say the reason others are suicidal is because of feelings of loneliness, sadness, or depression. I am inclined to think its for other reasons. In my case, I cannot say I feel lonely, or depressed. More simply that I cannot possibly think of meaning in my actions. What can I possibly do here on Earth that my inevitable death will not erase? Religion and drugs are only distractions. They serve only to remove the burden of understanding from our minds. Personally I cannot escape the thoughts of why. Why live if the only reward is death? Education, Family, Jobs, Love, they are all temporary. What purpose can they possess? I wanted to get an outside opinion, if maybe there was another who thought like this, who constantly is under attack from thoughts of pointlessness, thoughts that cannot be escaped. But like I said, it's not about feeling. I don't feel pointless, I just don't know anything and that is what causes my mind turmoil.