I can't stand it anymore. Everything I love or try just doesn't bring me any sort of joy or relief anymore. I recently tried <edit moderator total eclipse method>again just to escape but all it did was give me clarity on how miserable and hollow I feel inside! With every passing day I battle the severe lack of motivation, the depression, and the general toils of responsibility but it's like I'm juggling flaming chainsaws while being distracted by a monkey throwing knives at me. I slipped and almost lost my job today and now I just feel worse because I'm seeing how badly I'm struggling! I can't take this losing streak any longer! I have to end it!