I am worried here. I am worried about some troubled members. Please, think of the seriousness of what you write or intentions. How troubling does it feel to us when one of our fellow members is going to end it and there's nothing we can do? I'm sure we can all relate to that helpless feeling. I have attempted suicide for many reasons. We all have our reasons. I am better now, but I am not going to lie to you or myself by saying it won't come back. Full blown hell. I can't tell you that I won't ever attempt again. Some of us have and will die by our own hands. I can't stop that. None of us can. I don't know where I am going with this. Death is the biggest decision you and I will make. If you are going to do it, then damn it you are going to do it. Oh, just really THINK about it. That's all.