It's really not that, I've already come to accept that a long time ago, and I've been okay with that, as it's human nature not to care unless something will benefit you in some way. I've done it, you've done it, everyone has done it. That doesn't mean that you don't regret it, but it happens. That doesn't change anything, however. I feel like I'm always in a state of impending doom, like I'm set up for failure. I'm 18 years old, I'm useless, I have a few friends, but I doubt I really mean much to them, I'm close to graduating from High School, but at the same time, I just don't care. Why should I bother living if I'm just going to be alone? Okay, scratch that, I've realized that nobody cares, but I've yet to accept it, and it actually DOES bother me. I'll never find a girl that wants anything to do with me, and if by some miracle there IS one, they won't notice me, as I'm always that quiet person that goes unnoticed. I'm just that pathetic waste of space that nobody cares enough to say anything about, but in their minds, they all just hope I'll go away.