I am in crisis. Last year I tried to commit suicide; I went completely insane for over a month and my family suffered for it. I am married, I have an autistic child and everything is a struggle. I feel like I am nothing, I don't matter. I am trapped. I feel exactly the same a year later. The pills aren't numbing me anymore - I need help. I hate myself. Things are hard financially, nothing is working, I am a completely horrible person. I am so upset. I am morbidly obese and I have no will to live.