It's not worth it anymore

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Goldfish_r_everywhere, Nov 20, 2009.

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  1. Today I slipped back into SI. The last couple of weeks have been really difficult. I've had so much to deal with most of my life and I really wonder if it's worth it. The bullying was bad enough but the daterape has left more memories and pain that don't go away, they just get hidden. I still can't be around crowds of people without panicking and I have absolutely no slef-confidence. I hate the way my family look at me like I can just turn off these feelings of depression, loneliness and self-loathing like a switch. I'm fed up of hurting people I care about by not being able to cope as well as they obviously think I should be able to. I just think their lives would be so much easier if I just ended it all now. There's only so much of this s**t I can take. I'm fed up of being told it'll get better because it doesn't and I just fall deeper. I don't want my pain to hurt other people anymore, it's not worth it when you value your life as little as I do. It's time for it to stop.
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hiya,

    Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. I don't have any answers for you but please stick around, have you thought about counselling? It might help take the weight off your shoulders a little :hug:
     
  3. Chargette

    Chargette Well-Known Member

  4. th3silent0ne

    th3silent0ne Well-Known Member

    I won't tell u things will get better because I'm still waiting on that to come true. I know the feeling of being pushed to the edge, taunting me to jump. And being a burden to others knowing it will just make them feel sorry for me. I can't make ppl's problems go away, I just hope that u can find some kind of hope inside of u.
     
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