I am the cause of all problems in my family. I am nothing but a terrible son,brother, grandson, nephew, friend. I don't deserve anyone in my life. I do nothing but hurt everyone and destroy everything. I wish I would've never been born, because that's easier than ending my own life. Only because I'm too much of a coward. I don't know why I'm still here. I have never felt like such a piece of trash in my life. Alcoholic, drug addict, self centered, fucking retard. God damn it. I truly hate myself. I only hope for something to take me in my sleep or a tragic accident. I come here to try to talk to people or try to find comfort and no one cares to talk to me. I can't blame anyone. I wouldn't want to talk to me either. I deserve nothing but horrible things to happen to me. I would like for the mods to delete my account, but I've ask them and no response. I just don't belong anywhere other than in the ground.