Tonights it. It just has to be. Can't be tommorow. Can't be next week. Can't be next month. Can't be next year. Can't be in years to go. Has to be tonight. Today went fine at the start, then it crashed down. Just crashed down. Lost my best friend, lost my other best friend, forever, lost hope, lost love, lost everything... Not everything... still have the suicidal thoughts... they still exist... not for too long... not for too long... I'm sorry everyone. No, I'm not lying. No, I'm not kidding. Yes, I am serious. Yes, I am gonna do it. And yes, I am sorry.