I tell you, I'm fed up with this struggle. I feel down and out, but I don't want to kill myself. Call me a coward, but I am still afraid of Death. I'm just thinking of eventually selling my place and moving to a shack in a forest or in a grotto by the sea. I just want a big change. For a long time, I've avoided society's stupid game of hard work earns rewards. Then, in 2004, I decided to play it by going back to school. Let me tell you. The more you want a rewarding career, the more they punish you. They call it sacrifice, but I call it sadism. In the USA, how can anyone improve their lot in life when they're forced to pay for retraining, education, etc. How can anybody keep a home when there's property taxes. How can anybody maintain health when they're financially punished for being sick. And how can anyone work a regular job when the greedy fuck owners and CEOs are stealing all the money. The powerful are begging to be assassinated. I hope they die in a bloodbath.