It's ok

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Malcontent, Apr 22, 2007.

  1. Malcontent

    Malcontent Staff Alumni

    It's ok for me to be treated like shit. My feelings don't matter. It doesn't matter if I kill myself cos it'll be my own fault. It was my fault I was abused, it was my fault I was bullied, it was my fault I was hit. I'm nothing and it was all my fault. People can say whatever they want to me, cos it must be my fault. I must've done something to make them be so nasty to me and they're only doing it for my own good. Yeah hit me to make me see. Hit me until I realise I'm worthless. You're the good guys and I'm nothing compared to you.
  2. Blackness

    Blackness Guest

    Did you provoke abuse?
    I think not, therefore it wasn't your fault.
  3. Hazel

    Hazel SF & Antiquitie's Friend Staff Alumni

    Mal, I don't know what to say to you, I know I can tell you none of that is true till I am blue in the face, but you won't believe a word of it.....
    So all I can say is, I don't believe that is true and remind you that I care about you, you are just as good as anyone else and if you want to talk you know where I am..
  4. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    none of this is true, Mal. None of it.

    :hug: :hug:
  5. LoserxLove

    LoserxLove Banned Member

    That just almost made me cry reading that. You didnt deserve any of it.
  6. Malcontent

    Malcontent Staff Alumni

    If it's not true why do people make me feel like it is? And why do others act like it's ok for them to do that? But you know what? It is ok, I'm the SF punchbag. Feel like shit? - take a pop at me. It'll make you feel better and there'll be no consequences cos I don't have feelings. Isn't it fun to see me break? Laugh as I slash my wrists. I'll be fine and you can do it all again tomorrow.
  7. LoserxLove

    LoserxLove Banned Member

    Youre not the punching bag. I can say that whenever you are in the chatroom, I try to talk to you but you either dont see it or arent there.
  8. Malcontent

    Malcontent Staff Alumni

    Sorry LoserxLove, I often don't pay much attention to the general conversation in chat any more. It causes more trouble than it's worth when I talk. But I'll make the effort next time I see you in there. Thanks.
  9. RainbowChaser

    RainbowChaser Well-Known Member

    :hug: If you wanna talk to me about it, I'm on MSN now (along with a bunch of people who decided we need a replacement chat while SF chat's down).
  10. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni


    None of it was your fault :hug:
  11. LoserxLove

    LoserxLove Banned Member

    Its okay. I just figured you were busy. If you wanna talk,I have my IMs in my profile or you could PM me. :)
  12. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Mal, i know what this is about and you don't deserve to be treated like that. Your a FANTASTIC guy. We love you to bits and i hope you see that. Whats going on is not ok and you don't deserve it no matter how much you think you do. YOU DON'T DESERVE THIS!

  13. LoserxLove

    LoserxLove Banned Member

    Today sucks. :( Everyones so sad.
  14. none of that was your fault mal, it really wasn't. i was bullied, is that my fault? if a friend was bullied would that be their fault? no. so its not true for you sweetie. not your fault some people are just cruel..

    as for chat, you are not a punchbag, and dont deserve to be treated as one by anyone. if someone upsets you, tell them. maybe they arent realising it. here if you ever ever need a chat :)
  15. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    Mal, you do NOT deserve to be treated like a punchbag. NEVER!
  16. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Mal, you did not deserve abuse as a child, as an adolescent, as a young adult. It is not your fault that someone chose to do what they did to you. It was there decision. Their wrongdoing. As for being the SF punching bag. I do not agree there at all. I value your input and your contributions here on the forum. There will always be those that don't agree with what someone has to say and each time you put things in writing, it opens up that possibility. Sometimes people do respond with words that can hurt. I am sorry if this has been the case for you Mal. Please do not take it to heart. You have the courage and tenacity that a few others lack. Thank you for being you. I happen to think you are pretty terrific. :hug:
  17. Malcontent

    Malcontent Staff Alumni

    And once again it's proven that I'm less than everyone else. How dare I think otherwise.
  18. Dragon

    Dragon Staff Alumni

    How dare you think that, Mal! You are not less than everyone else, and never let anyone tell you that. You're greatly valued as a friend by many people on here including myself, and I think you're a wonderful person.
  19. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    ^ I agree.