Hey SF, Well.. I don’t know anymore. This is my first day of my senior year in high school, and im already convinced I should just give up completely. Sit in my bed, wait for the day i get kicked out, and just go kill myself. In my own eye, im just speeding up the process. Its only going to get harder, not easier. Im going to college next year, and IF I get through this year at all, its going to be harder after that. then harder, and harder, and harder, and harder. Then find a job? In this economy? Why cant I just leave now? I don’t know what to do SF. I want to kill myself so bad, I want to hurt myself right now but my dad is in just the next room. Ive got so many hard courses this year, and everybody is telling me there easy, but only one interests me at all, and its not easy at all (psychology). Ive been trying to let my arm heal and go on my thigh, but I don’t know. Maybe ill skip that and start again.