hes gone. its been two weeks and i REALLY didnt think i could cope. he left this morning. i feel so calm. i feel like i can do anything right now (except speak...sorry for lack of words) i went away from friday to monday..and that helped a lot. but even so, i did it. I ACTUALLY DID IT. now might be the time to start dealing with this? its a scary thought, but maybe with some help it might be time??