I swear with God as my witness, that I will go to my grave never understanding my soon to be exwife. I missed our first divorce hearing in January as I thought it was on a different day. Not much happened during that hearing mainly that the Judge wanted to hold off anything til March, as he likes couples to be seperated for 6 months just to be sure. March will be our 6 month of seperation. So when my wife called me and told me about this stuff, she said that maybe we could start dating each other. And...she then suggested that I go with her and the kids to the Olive Garden on Valentines Day. Our first date!!!! That went well. Then last night happened. I called her and asked her if she would like a second date, taking her and the kids out for dinner this Thursday and she turned me down. She then gave me another new reason why we are not getting back together. First when she left it was the drinking. Then it was stupid things like, how when I was renting an electronic drumset, I started to do some online recording and that ticked her off. The drums are gone. Then it was my "obsession" with the rock band KISS. Well that is over. Now....last night...it is my eating habits. Apparently, even though we were married for 20 years, 20 YEARS.....she no longer likes my eating habits, as if I had control over my taste buds. I can read between the lines well enough to know that she is just making excuses for the obvious. She no longer wants to be with me, and she just doesnt want to hurt me by telling me the truth. Here's the kicker. I can't live without her. These past 6 months I have engaged on a mission of improving myself, for her. I guess that was all for nothing. So.....today is one of those days when I am having serious thoughts about taking care of business once and for all. I mean screw it....what difference does it make? Today I know the truth, and the pain I am feeling is so massively intense that I just can't do this anymore. I will stick around here today because I am at work, and I didnt drive 45 miles one way just to leave right now. But tonight may not be so good.