I feel I'm on a ticking clock and its coming to an end. I just want this burning in me to go away. I hate when people tanish me as a coward for comtempleting to make this pain end. I have friends and family and yes I think about leaving them but its me I want to help not them. Iv done therepy iv done medication I can't do no more. I put on this show each day and laugh and joke in work then come home to cry. Depression has consumed me and it has won its overi