my life is over. There's no hope for me now; there's never been any hope for me in the first place. I'm not good at anything, or at least not good at anything I enjoy doing anymore. I've already decided I'm going to kill myself within the next few years; hope is all gone. I'm tired of faking that I'm "okay" but I know nobody cares; they only ask about how I'm doing just to get the answers they want to hear, not 'cause they actually care. I'll try to elaborate as much as I can, but my head is so overwhelmed I don't even know what to say right now. I just want to finally be freed; not even seeing a therapist or suicide hotlines help... I just want to die.