to get better or try and find something to live for when it seems that I attract drama and repel fun. Tonight I was awoken at 130am to loud knocking on my door. I opened it to find a friend crying and saying she broke up with her bf and he said he was going to kill himself and then ran away. So I spent the next hour looking for him (he's upset but fine) and then the next 3 hours just hanging with her so she's not alone. Not the same as other times but I always seem to have to deal with this shit and especially with relationship stuff. I'm the one that gets to deal with the crying girl meanwhile I've never even been on a fucking date. Then it seems like I repel fun and miss out on any of the crazy stuff that makes college the time of experiences. On monday two girls and a guy were getting drunk and I got invited over to join. I went over but didn't drink and left early because I was going to class in the morning. I find out that it got pretty crazy and I missed it all because I decided to go to class for the first time in a month. I just seemed to be cursed so that all the shit just piles on and any stuff that might let me get past some barriers literally happens right after I leave.