July 16th 2005, that was my first attempt, I shouldn't be here, I hated the guy that "did me a favour" I thought I was past it, I've been going ok for nearly a year. But just recently Ive started to cut myself again, I don't know why I do it, but I don't control it. I just go to my room take a knife and slice away. I can't stop, and I'm not even sure I want to. This is exactly what happened to me last time, I don't know what to do about it, last time I was like this for 2 months before I tried to take my own life.