it's strange...

[ExtraSoap]

It really is, im sitting here in my room with no power (im on my phone)with an oil lamp and a bottle of lantern oil and all i can seem to think about is pouring the oil o n myself and lughting a lighter. I know i wont do it but im not scared or hapy or anything. Nothing.
same thing happened earlier today when i saw a high ledge and all i could think about was whether the fall would kill me.

 

[Isabel]

Hi ES,

It seems to me that if you are not already doing it, you might want to consult a professional. When death ideations become overwhelming, it is much better on the side of the safe rather than the sorry. Depression has it own vicious circular logic which makes it seem hopeless but its not. But you probably need help to see pass it.

 

[ExtraSoap]

Hi ES,

It seems to me that if you are not already doing it, you might want to consult a professional. When death ideations become overwhelming, it is much better on the side of the safe rather than the sorry. Depression has it own vicious circular logic which makes it seem hopeless but its not. But you probably need help to see pass it.

well, It's not overwhelming, and it was just that day, strangely enough. But I am seeing a psychiatrist weekly, and it helps a lot, but sometimes it doesnt feel like enough.