am depressed. i have no happy memories...i'm 16, not sure if that is good or bad...my depressions are killing me, my mind is killing me... i planned on killing myself last saturday...well i didn't. i stayed alive for my friends...i promised myself and others that i'd wait for a month to check how it all turns out... well it didnt get any better...it just got worse... i cant stand this anymore... i am fucking dieing... no. i am dead. i died last saturday. i am a corpse. not alive or dead. i am worse than dead. i am myself. fuck.