I am in a play, I am a talented actress, I gave a fantastic performance last night, we got a standing ovation, it felt wonderful. After the show my friends all came up to the stage and hugged me and told me how great it was and how much they enjoyed it. And then everyone left, and when I came out from backstage with my stuff it struck me, I was all alone again, and I had to go home and be alone. It is a horrible feeling to have no one to share your joy with, no one to just share life with when you need someone to be there. on top of it, the one person I really wanted to be there to see me perform, did not come, the disappointment hurt a lot. I feel so empty and alone I just wish I was dead so I did not hve to feel this ache inside.