Hi, im new here. Just felt like telling someone that i am going to do it soon. I just came back from hospital after an unsuccessful attempt. and i cant stop the pain, the memories of abuse and tortures that i have gone through and still going through. Been cutting myself for the past two years... and i thought my last attempt will be the last but never happened the way i wished for. My sister managed to take me to the hospital on time. I just want to end all of it. I dont benefit anyone living in this world and people around me are just pretending to like me. enough is enough..