It's time to go

[Anna]

I can't deal with this anymore, so :depressed. Things are never going to get better and I have accepted this. I want all the pain to stop. And it never will. My grandfather took his life. Got hit by a train. I think it runs in the family. Depression, addiction, self hatred. Lost the love of my life then my mother died. I just want out of this world, it's to painful to keep going on. There's nothing that makes me happy, and I know there never will be.

I haven't talked with many people on this forum, but to the ones I have , I want to thank you for trying to help and listening to me. :smile:

I've lost all hope, and I just don't want to be here anymore. I thought I could find help here but it's not meant to be. :sad:.

Good luck to everyone on here, I hope you can overcome the demons and find happiness.:smile:

Love,,
Anna

 

[Beret]

Anna hun, im so sorry youve had families members that took their life and that have been depressed. But you can be strong and become someone who achieves happiness in her life. Please hold on and keep posting what it is that makes you feel so low. Please feel free to contact me anytime hun,
Beret xxx

 

[pit]

I feel isolated too. My parents died of cancer back in the mid 90s. I have no family left. I can't have pets except fish because of my asthma/allergies. I have a couple of friends, but I don't talk to them every day.

I'm no good at being a boyfriend, much less a husband. I'm in a career change, and I don't know if it will work out. I spend a lot of time in front of the TV just channel surfing. Besides that, I listen to CDs and read.

I think the key to going on, no matter what the circumstances, is not to take life seriously. At all! I mean, did you ask to be born into this world? Everybody has it coming. Failure, humiliation, ruination, physical and mental suffering. No one was meant to ride out this life on a nice, smooth wave.

The best you can do is take comfort from the simple things in life. Like a nice piece of pie. Or a friendly smile. It may sound corny, but you can't control the big things. You can only appreciate the little things that make life pleasant.

 

[Anna]

Thanks for replying. But nothing will get better. I try to enjoy the simple things in life, I've never been one that wanted to have it all. But I can't enjoy even the smallest things. I use to enjoy reading,I can't concentrate to do it anymore. I'm 40 and it's just to late for life to turn around. God won't even help me. So what's the point? I'm just an emotional wreck, and I've lost faith in everything.
Love,,
Anna

 

[livingdeath]

Hi, Anna. I am sorry to hear that, like me, you see no hope. I just want you to know you are not alone in feeling that. I really know what you mean about not being able to enjoy anything. I have the same deal with reading -- I used to have a book going all the time; now I cannot concentrate because my mind is tortured. I used to be able to enjoy simple things like food, or a walk, or the beach, or scenery. Now, the world looks like a nightmare to me. There is no joy in anything. I'm a bit older than you. I've been this way now for more than a couple of years -- it got really bad when the love of my life dumped me -- and I just don't see any hope. I hate the coming of each new day. I know what you mean when you say "nothing makes me happy". I just wanted to let you know you are not alone with that horrible feeling. Feel free to pm me any time if you don't mind talking to someone who is definitely not cheerful.
Ld

 

[KyleKW]

I can relate to how you're feeling, Anna. People think these things are a matter of not being strong, mental illness, or some other easy answer. But that's just not always the case. Sometimes life just hurts, A LOT, and it only seems to get worse despite your best efforts.

Cannot believe that I am even on this site, just joined today. I read the 'guidelines' so know to watch what I say, but it's tough. I plan to post my own situation here on the board, not sure why, guess I feel like I need it to be said to people that don't know me.

For now, Anna, I just wanted to let you know that someone else DOES understand how you feel; that, unlike many people that contemplate or attempt such a thing, I hope that you've exhausted everything else before acting on your thoughts. If you can smile or take happiness from anything at all, no matter how little, maybe try to focus on that and see if you build on it. Might be the hardest thing you've ever done, and might be the most important.

Your friend!