I wrote in another thread,today is even worse. My bf insists I get meds/therapy,doesnt want to guarantee any part of keeping a committment to me. once again,its me debasing myself and he does nothing. He even wants me to watch some stupid CBN show about hell,knowing that i have a fear of supernatural,have since i was a child. He says other girls dont cut themselves or are as hard to deal with as i am,and says that my sister told him that i was too much to deal with and he shouldnt put up with me. I cant take it anymore. it hurts too much to breathe. I dont have my best plan-he took my supplies-but i have another one that will work. Im trying to get the courage to do it tonight. it only takes 15-45 minutes,supposedly. 45 minutes isnt too long to acheive peace is it? i just cant do this anymore. i dont want to be awake anymore.