I feel like its time to get things in order. I need to leave this life and maybe reincarnate into another one. Hopefully a better one than this one. And if there is no reincarnation, I'd like to just be free... flying away and never looking back. This life only brings me pain. I feel like a prisoner because I can't let the bad feelings out. I can't even cry, even though I want to. I feel like I am trapped. I am losing control. I feel so bad about myself. I hate me! I need to be free of myself. No one else likes me... and if they dont want to be around me... then neither do I.