Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by mike308, Jan 30, 2009.

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  1. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    It's DARK, cold, drinking too much and alone all the time.
    It's just time..
    Why waste words. I have the means, just need the will.
  2. Mandy1

    Mandy1 Antiquities Friend & Senior Member

    hi mike,please dont do anything to harm yourself,i understand how you feel and theres others here who will understand aswell,tell us more whats made you feel this way,take care,here for you.
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Mike,

    I hope you didn't do anything harmful.

    Please post and let us know how you are. We are here for you :hug:

    Lynn x
  4. Locket

    Locket Well-Known Member

    mike i really hope you didn't hurt yourself in any way!
    please let someone know you're okay! :hug:
    my thoughts are with you :heart: x
  5. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    there comes a time when you get to the end.
    It's not possible to hope for a brighter tomorrow when all is black.
    God no longer seems to be there by my side. Due to my endless sins and bad behavior.
    If I get drunk enough..whiskey courage... Think I can actuality do it.
  6. LastCrusade

    LastCrusade Well-Known Member

    it is only at this JUNCTURE of ur life that u see no light at the end of the tunnel. keep walking and eventually u will find the light. if life has been unfair or unkind to you, then u should FIGHT BACK and change your fate/ destiny. Your future is determined by what you do today. If u know that life has dealt you with an unfair hand, then u must FIGHT back and HIT HARD with your best shot. KEEP TRYING instead of giving up the battle. It is through perseverance that will pull you through and NOT by giving up. AGAINST ALL ODDS you might FIGHT. Dont admit defeat. FIGHT! Do something instead of sitting down thinking everything is futile. An idle mind is the devils workshop and if u let it wander, soon u will think that life has no meaning at all. STOP the spiral. Do something. Take the FIRST STEP!
  7. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    I have a good life, materially that is.
    Have a full time job, some money in the bank, a nice home, THINGS.
    A wife that loves me, but doesn't understand my thoughts or deep depression.
    It's hard to explain.
    There is no meaning in life anymore.
  8. jKORE

    jKORE Senior Member

    Hey mike, I know how you are feeling, and I know you won't believe me, but I'm in a similar situation, in that the pain is far away from what the world sees.

    I've learned to keep things inside due to being mocked by those who are supposed to love me, telling me that I have nothing to complain about, that my life is 'perfect' compared to others.

    They have no idea, they couldn't possibly, because they can't read what goes on in my head and in my heart.

    I suppose what i want to say is, I know firsthand what a relief it can be to speak to someone anonymously about everything you have bottled up, to not be judged, to not be mocked, to have someone to listen, for once...

    If you wanna chat, about ANYTHING - movies or books, if that interests you - just message me.

  9. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    There is not real meaning in anything we do..
    I had to put my old cat down..she was my friend for many years.
    She had cancer and was suffering terribly. it was time for her to go.
    I held her in my arms when the VET... A LOVELY WOMEN.. gave her the injection.
    I looked in her eyes and she, my lovely cat.. was afraid..
    WHY.. how can death be worse then what we have here???
    The great unknown... it must be bread into us that life is valuable.
  10. ddman

    ddman Member

    Mike, your wife and kids LOVE you. They would be hurt for the rest of their lives if you took your own life.

    Please exhaust all means of treatment/help before you consider ending it.
  11. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    I don't have any kids.
    Just a distant wife and a couple of cats. Not to trash my wife. I DROVE her away.
    You all have been great as always.. Don't know how you do it.
    There is so much pain and sorrow in the world today. Meanness, anger and a for lack of a better term "just get the fuck out of my way".attitude.
    I don't remember this when I was younger.
    It's TIME.
    Do you know Google records all your searches??? They will give your information to the "authorities".. big brother is watching and his name is.
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