i dont' go into chat very often. and i tired tonight. and was then told that something else was more importnat thenn me. like i don't already know that. why donesn't anyone understand. i am at the end and nobody cares, why am i even fighting to stay here when its clear taht i'm not wanted even my people who are meant to understand. this isn't a guilt trup caise nonbody here really knows me, and i don't blame you, its my own fault. i tried samaritans i tried calling a friend, i have no family to call, mastt are engaged, so yes i trired and i was pushed away. i don't need a more clearer sign. i'm not meant to live.