iv become what I've hated

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by Sa Palomera, Dec 30, 2006.

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  1. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    yeah please shoot me, this evening I turned out to be *that* woman. the woman I detest. I had a little "fun" with one of my housemates\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\ who's got a girlfriend. :shy: and I'm sleep so I guess i'm a heav of rit bad
  2. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Hey sweetheart, me and you have talked about this and you know what i think. Theres not much i can say, i wish i could say more but i honestly don't know what i could possible say to make ypu feel better. I can completley understand the way your feeling over what happened. I is glad ya trusted me enough to tell me what happened and called me before :hug:

    Remeber what i said on the phone earlier hun. This will all get sorted. Trust me :wink:

    Hope your allright as the last bit of your posts didnt make much sense.

    I'm allways here for you and you know that!

    Love Viks :cheekkiss

    (will check on ya later today x)
  3. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    sorry I wasn't sober and was falling half asleep hehe... :shy:
  4. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    lol i gathered :tongue: hehehehe
  5. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    You ok, Est? :hug:
  6. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    dont worry about me guys, I'm fine. Just done some really stupid things and all, but I'm fine
  7. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Like i told ya on the phone, it will work its self out :hug: and me cant help but worry about ya, me cares about ya :tongue:
  8. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    Me too :hug:
  9. Hey just to let you know I think ur punishing urself enough about this if ur feeling so abd an no it was wrong u shud try and let it go.

    I mean whats done is done right u know it was wrong ur sorry about it so try not to beat urself up about it to much.

    Hope ur kk now


  10. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Est, put it in a box and forget it..we all makes mistakes
  11. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    Yeah, it was a mistake and you can't take it back, so quit punishing yourself, you have to get past this and if you keep punishing yourself it turns into a vicious circle of chaos. So, just let it go, leave it in the past where it should be. Take care of yourself, Ester. I am sorry we haven't talked much lately but if you need to talk you know where I am. :hug:

    -Carolyn :smile:
  12. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    thank you so much everyone :hug:

    It's just.. I don't just feel guilty. It's also cos I confuse myself. One moment I HATE guys and am disgusted with them and can't stand any physical contact with them cos it reminds me of the past and god knows what and the other I just crave for them to use my body. I guess my body is so used to being used by men or something. I don't know. It's just confusing. I mean, I HATE sex. I truly HATE sex, yet I go around and let them ... and god knows what else.
    I'm confused with myself :unsure:
  13. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Hun i told you this on the phone, you can't just let this keep happening. You do things to please other people wether you want to or not. Thats not right. I know you said you don't care, and when i said you should it sounded like you got pissed at me, might of being because you was annoyed before you called me, i dunno.

    It's natural to feel guilty but you gotta remember it wasn't just you, he's the worst for doing what he did. Like i said yesterday, if it happened it happened, not much you can do about it now. I know your confused sweetheart, its not suprising with that with whats happened in the past and recently.

    Babe you gotta listen to me, you can't keep letting this happen, letting yourself be used like that, its just gonna confuse yourself even more. You say you dont care, well i DO! i don't wanna see or hear your being used by people sweetheart, it hurts. No one should ever be used in that way. If you hate sex so much, why let it keep happening? if you hate it you NEED to stop letting situations like that happening and not let things happen because you feel you have to.

    You know i care about ya and i'm here anytime for ya, you know where i am if you need to talk, i even give ya permission to wake me up like the other night :wink: lol

    Viks xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    (ps. sounded a bit chilly last night :wink: :rofl:) hehehehehe :tongue: i was laughing so much when i came off the phone because of you lol :laugh:
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