ive already died

[liveinhope]

I hate living my life like this i have a family who deserve s much more than i can now give, i want to die so deperately i have a plan but keep managing to stop myself using it im scared though now becouse there is nothing but suicidal thoughts in my head and wondering ways that would be most effective (doing the job properly) i cant fight anymore i won a few battles but im seriously loosing the war i feel like ive already died inside its the external part of me now that i need to dispose of

 

[Puddytat]

you feel like your family deserves more than you can give them but how is you being gone going to give them any more? its just going to take away fom them and make them more miserable. you can give them so much more by just being here than if you were gone.

sorry, not meant as a guilt trip, just an observation.


you said you've won a few battle so you know it is possible, dont look at the war as a war, look at it as a lot of little battles, break it down into smaller things that you can tackle and accomplish otherwise you start to feel overwhelmed.

if you are thinking about attempting, get rid of anything that might encourage/trigger you or tempt you at least then it is harder for you to do anything on the spur of the moment and gives you some time to think about it and calm down.

i know its difficult to stop those thoughts in your head, why not make a box of things that inspire you or make you happy, good memories, nice letters from someone on SF, passages in books you like, beautiful artwork, things that really lift your spirits and then when you feeling down you can always look at them and feel better that you have good things in your life, that you have love.

im thinking about you
:hug:

 

[Blackness]

I know how you feel. You want to die to like kill your body, because your soul is already gone
These suicidal thoughts pretty much control your whole mind, on your mind all the time, replaying it over and over. You need to distract youself, somehow, anyway to stop these :hug:

 

[Hazel]

I believe that inside all us who want/wanted to end our lives there is a minute little part of us that wants to survive and it is this that pulls us back from the brink, it that brought us to Sf, it may be triggered by our family or friends or maybe just a glimpse of something we used to enjoy..
This is what you have to grasp on to, this is what has stopped you before, yes your head is swamped with suicidal thoughts but deeply buried amongst them this little part is still there, it won't desert you, please hold on until you glimpse it again.

:hug: Hazel xo

Pm me if you want to talk...

 

[resistance]

A war is made of battles and if you beat all the battles you end up winning the war. You're doing really well so far, don't give in to the suicidal thoughts. You have people who care about you, both online and offline, let us be there for you and help you get through this time. Thinking of you. :hug: