I've been discovered :(

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Ozzy Manson, May 20, 2010.

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  1. Ozzy Manson

    Ozzy Manson Well-Known Member

    today was...interesting you could say in the least. i got called out of one of my classes saying a teacher i knew well needed me. only soon after to find that a student in there class that period had somehow managed to discover that i cut, even though only my closest friends about 3 people out of a 800 student body knew. and the person wasn't even hardly a friend of mine is what throws me... I was questioned rather intervention style in the hallway for about 15 minutes before getting escorted to the psychologists office. Spent the remaining TWO HOURS of the day talking to a person whom i'd never before seen or met, yet the seemed to expect me to tell everything. I ended up signing an agreement kind of thing, stating that i promised not to injure and or try to kill myself or harm myself in any way. and should i feel like doing so i had been helped come up with things to do when i felt that way. then the worst thing happened. after being told by the teacher and the student who had been involved that as along as i went along with everything my parents wouldn't have to be notified, i was given a sheet of paper and instructed to start writing down what i planned to say to my mom. (needless to say the whole "won't have to tell your parents" thing was a load of bull shit) My heart stopped beating and i froze, worst thing to have to do to my mom really... now it has been a few days since then but i still have to see two different counselors every day for what ever reason. and now that more teachers and staff have become involved, a meeting has been set up with the counselors a few of my teachers and even the asst principle and the principle to all meet with my parents and I. I really wish i didn't have to go because i don't want to find out whats going to happen next, especially not from my dad.

    Sorry this is kinda long, i really needed to get this out there. perhaps some of you guys are/have been in this type of a situation before and could give your opinion on what's going down, or even just what you think of all this regardless of if you have experienced this before or not...I'm not sure what's going to happen next, please wish me luck with this one...
  2. Pow

    Pow Well-Known Member

    I don't think you should be scared but instead pleased that your getting alot of support from teachers.
    It would probally be better this way instead of going deeper and feeling theres no way out.
    When I was in school the teachers didn't really give a damn so in ways I envy you :( But good luck!
  3. Nox Immortalis

    Nox Immortalis Well-Known Member

    don't worry about it. My mom cried a lot when she found out but now she just worries a bit. Everything really will turn out okay; it did for me. I was terrified of my parents' reactions, but it was ok in the end.
  4. cownes

    cownes Well-Known Member

    i wasnt there when my mom found out but i had to face her afterwards and she was crying, ur parents only want wahts best for you, so may be upset, but they will only want to support you :hug:
  5. Pebble

    Pebble Well-Known Member

    When I was at school I had a friend find out about my sh somehow - I still do not know how as I was very careful but anyways she went and told one of my teachers. They asked me a lot of questions and I told him some of how I felt, he reassured me afterwards that everything was ok and my parents wouldn't be told. Later that day I started to panic and went back to see him - it was then that I found out he was in a meeting at the time with my mum!!!I was pertrified too, felt physically sick and just wanted to run. My parents were angry and upset - the anger I understand now was just because they were scared and didn't understand. Although I didnt want my parents or anyone for the matter to know, I recieved alot of support from my teacher and he really helped me get through some hard times.
    I know it is probably feeling really scaring at the moment and you are probably quite worried about your parents reaction but the positive thing is that when they find out you will have support aorund you from people who can explain things to your parents more so that they can gain more of an understanding and can hopefully help you get through this. I hope it all goes ok for you :hug: x
  6. Ozzy Manson

    Ozzy Manson Well-Known Member

    thanks so much for your support you guys :)

    pow, i guess i really should be pleased that i'm getting some help..I think its just scary at first because i now am getting lots of attention from the staff and it makes me kinda nervous haha I don't think the teachers really have changed much since you were in school, the most likely would never have cared either except i'm real buddy buddy with the principle so she found out and probably put them on alert to be nice or something..
    foreverlost and cowness, my mom cried a lot too, and i felt extremly happy when she said i didn't have to be around when my dad found out becasue i'm so scared of him. If anything good has come out of this now he is actually being nice to me now. I'm glad that like you said now i have them to support me too, and i don't have to hide as much anymore. hopefully this will end up good for me as it has for you!

    Pebble, sounds like we both had the same thing happen to us. I was really scared to tell my mom, but it seems now everything has all settled down a bit. hopefully once we have the meeting with the counselors and such it will be easier on my parents. The nice thing is that it seems every day more of the teachers i have at school find out and are all there for me, they all say hi and ask how i am when they see me in the hall and will hug me or pat me on the back at the end of the day. its very nice of them i think, makes me feel very good. thanks for the well wishes too :hug:

    thanks everybody for your support! :) i'll let you know how it keeps going and turns out, especially after the meeting next wednesday..
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