I don't know exactly why, but last month was the lowest month of my life. I felt horrible, like the weight of the world was crushing me. Between my work, my school, my "friends", my piece of shit family, I just didn't think I could breathe. Because of it all, I decided to disappear for a while, and here I am, in a dark, light-less room sitting on the floor in the corner with my head leaning against the wall. I've been here alone for exactly a month, and being alone for that long gives you enough of time to think and "meditate", and thanks to all that thinking and meditating, I am now 10x as depressed as I was last month. This is truly the lowest I can possibly get, and I'm unsure of what to do. Should I die? Should I go back to my awful life? I've been here for a month, so I know I've been fired from my job, and my school probably kicked me out. Ugh! Both options suck absolute dick! I really want to die, but suicide is such a pain. Please, give me some advice. And if you're advice is not to die, please give me a good reason.