i've been hoarding tablets again... i was fooling myself, telling myself that they were just spares... in case i cant pick up my script on the right day! I went in my jewellry box and i must have easily had assorted tablets there. Its freaked me out a bit, i though i was doing better... it'll be a year this month since i overdosed. It's all still there, raw, hidden under the surface. I couldn't feel anything after it happened... i died twice and yet still nothing! Not even any remorse. I have been running in practical mode for the last 8 months or so, very numb but recently its been getting harder and harder, i cut my leg again. feel so scared.