I didn't mean to, but I've wrecked the most precious thing that I had and that was my mind. I can't get over it. I had such a beautiful mind and a great life, but it's all been ruined. I used to think that this type of thing only happened to older people. I never would have expected anything like this could happen, but it has and there is nothing that anyone can do for me. I always ask myself "how could this happen", but it has and I know that I'm going to have to live with mental pain for the rest of my life. It hurts me so deeply that I had such a great life and I've ended up like this. It feels like I'm in prison. I just don't know of anyone else that this has happened to and can't understand why this happened to me. I just want it all to go away. I want to die. I can't stand the thought of having to suffer for the rest of my life. How could my brain be damaged when I didn't have any type of head injury and never took any drugs. I just got stressed out and all of a sudden like my mind was altered. I know that it wasn't my fault, but I always feel like I'm being punished.