i've done it again

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by hopeless, Jan 24, 2009.

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  1. hopeless

    hopeless Well-Known Member

    well, i've managed to miss at least 4 doses of my medicine, and now i find myself thinking about it again. i've managed to keep my thoughts under control for the most part. i just really want to cut or kill myself. i'm trying to just hold on until my medicine kicks back in. the pdoc i go to works at one of those low-income clinics so you can't see him unless you have an appointment. if you're having a problem with your meds they tell you to go to the psych hospital. i really want to find a real pdoc again but i just can't afford it so i'm just stuck right now.

    oh well. i keep trying to hold on.

    this is a big improvement from where i used to be. normally i would have cut and burned myself and possibly even tried to kill myself again.

    i guess this medecine is really working. i just need to hold on a little longer.:unsure:

    it just seems like everytime i start to get leveled back out i miss a dose here and there and i'm right back where i started at. i'm just so tired of fighting it because i've been fighting it for 20 years now.
  2. andyc68

    andyc68 Guest

    keep holding on.

    i can't stress how important it is to take meds every day, its the first thing i do every morning, cup of tea and pop a pill.

    take care
  3. Rachel123

    Rachel123 Well-Known Member

    You need to get into a routine so you don't forget your medines. I'm one to talk.... But I've realized how important it is.
    Keep holding on!! The feelings will pass!! You can do it!! :hug:
  4. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    I'm glad that you resisted the urge to cut or burn yourself. :hug:
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Why did you stop taking your medication?:unsure:

    Stay strong hun, you can make it :arms:
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