I've failed

[user3181]

I don't know where to start to be honest. As a matter of fact, I don't even know why I posted this.

The depression I suffer from is unbearable and although I sought help, it has done nothing to improve my situation.

I am 27 years old, a job that I hate and in the process of pursuing an opportunity that is hit or miss. This opportunity I am chasing is literally the only reason I am typing this. I believe I made a mistake in my young days as a university student and now I am paying the price. I feel I am not strong enough for the punishment I am receiving. I feel that I have let my parents down. They don't know what I am suffering from and I probably won't ever tell them because it would crush them. Yes, I understand that If I ended my life they would be devastated but how much suffering can a man take?

 

[Paisley]

Why is whatever this opportunity is so important? What mistake did you make in university? And by punishment, do you mean situational depression, or do you mean abuse from your parents?

Sorry for the question overload. Just trying to get a feel for the situation.

 

[user3181]

Why is whatever this opportunity is so important? What mistake did you make in university? And by punishment, do you mean situational depression, or do you mean abuse from your parents?

Sorry for the question overload. Just trying to get a feel for the situation.

I am pursing a career change. It is originally what I wanted to do in universtiy, but I got kicked out of my program because I spent all my time playing video games. I feel if I were successful in this career change I may finally have a purpose in life. Punishment as in waking up and wishing I didn't. My parents have never done me any wrong ever.

 

[JDot]

Hi @user3181 It's understandable to be depressed when life hasn't gone the way you wanted it to. You'll always have a place here to share your thoughts and feelings. We're glad to have you here.

 

[Paisley]

I am pursing a career change. It is originally what I wanted to do in universtiy, but I got kicked out of my program because I spent all my time playing video games. I feel if I were successful in this career change I may finally have a purpose in life. Punishment as in waking up and wishing I didn't. My parents have never done me any wrong ever.

Oh, okay. I take it you're enrolling to redo the course? Or are you going to set out directly into the workforce?

Glad to hear your parents are a positive in your life. I do understand the feeling of being pressured to stay alive for the sake of those you care about.

 

[Champagne]

Hi there, you say your parents have never done you any wrong, I doubt they are disappointed with what you do, lots of people make mistakes and errors in judgment, chase your dreams and I hope you will. In the meantime, I think you could tell your parents you are struggling, they might be able to help you, as you sound like you are close to them. Good luck

 

[Mr Pryce]

I don't know where to start to be honest. As a matter of fact, I don't even know why I posted this.

The depression I suffer from is unbearable and although I sought help, it has done nothing to improve my situation.

I am 27 years old, a job that I hate and in the process of pursuing an opportunity that is hit or miss. This opportunity I am chasing is literally the only reason I am typing this. I believe I made a mistake in my young days as a university student and now I am paying the price. I feel I am not strong enough for the punishment I am receiving. I feel that I have let my parents down. They don't know what I am suffering from and I probably won't ever tell them because it would crush them. Yes, I understand that If I ended my life they would be devastated but how much suffering can a man take?

Dont stress, because everyone takes risks in life. My favourite type of person is a person that takes a risk. I used to do it all the time. I did it when pursuing professional employment and when i was chasing girls. I did it when doing other certain things. like trading in something for something. I think you can undo the mistakes you made in life. Although it is harder to get back up later in life but i can assure you that you can, and will get back on your feet, with careful thinking.

 

[SkyTree]

I am also a 27 year old that went to college just because it was my duty. I wasn't really passionate about what I studied. I'm still discerning that to this day but I will try for something I think clicks with me more. There is still time and hope for you to find and do what you really want. I'm struggling right along side you.