I've finally accepted it.

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by whoaaxxsamm, Nov 24, 2010.

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  1. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    I've finally accepted that my best friend is a drug addict.
    What am I going to do?
    We have been friends for 13 years. I didn't think it would end up this way.

    I almost lost her last night from an overdose of cocaine.
    I hate drugs.

    She called me looking for sympathy; I couldn't give it to her.
    Am I a monster?

    She will be going to rehab soon, if she goes through with it.

    Do you think this life threatening incident will truly make her stop?

    I can't handle going to a funeral right now.
    I need her to get better.
    Will she ever completely recover?
    It's only been a year since she started.

    She has lied, and betrayed me.
    She had been unreliable, and not cared about me.

    The thing is, my best friend is a follower.
    Her whole life she has done things to impress the guys that she likes.
    That's how the drugs started.

    Urgh, I don't know what to do.
    I want to be there for her, but I can't get past my anger.
    She's hurting me so much. She's pushing me away.
    Does she even love me? Does she even care about me?
  2. doityourself

    doityourself Well-Known Member

    Drugs are impossible to quit unless the user is ready. There will be nothing you can say or do that will make her stop unless she is ready.

    Im sorry that you have to see her go through this and I hope that she does get the help thats needed.

    The only thing that you can do is let her know that you love her, you will be here for her when she gets out, but as long as she continues to use that you will not be there. That she is ruining your friendship, let her know you miss the old her, remind her of who that was, show pictures, tell stories, remind her that it wasnt so bad before she started using, give her a reason to want to quit.

    I wish you all the luck in the world, and hope for her sake that she can fight this demon off her back.
  3. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Thank you.
    It's hard for me to do that right now.
    I have to get past all the anger.
    It's also hard to remember the good times.
    I miss seeing her though.
    Thank you again.
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    i understand but until she is ready she won't stop i hope for her sake she does realize how dangerous it is now and i hope she sticks to getting the help I live with a family of addicts and now my daughter is one The best thing youcan do for your friend is to walk away a bit now let her take this time to take care of herself. Tell her when she is ready to resume your friendship drug free you will be there take care of YOU okay that is the most impt thing now:hugtackles::hugtackles:
  5. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Thank you Violet.
    I hope everything turns out okay for you and your family, including your daughter. :)
  6. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    it takes alot of energy looking after an addict it bleeds you dry it does
    My girl i hope in time will get that help now she has a new team behind her
    Itoo have learned to back off some because i was being pulled under by it all.
    better to let professionals step in now and you get some rest okay
    you try to find other attachments that do not use other friends you can be safe with emotionally.
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