I spent the weekend at my brothers house, helping him working on the new barn. I was having major anxiety so I called it quits and came home where I feel safe. The closer we get to finishing the barn the closer my date with death becomes real. Like I have said in some of my posts. I will stick around to help him finish the barn. Then it is time to finish dealing with all this pain both physical and mental!! I don't know what to say. There is actually nothing to be said. I have nothing to show for this life time. I let this life slip by.I hope the next one doesn't hold the health problems that I have had over this lifetime.