Im here because obviously i want help. I'm confused, scared and feel like im alone. I have good parents- they argue, we have problems like every other family. But I feel so stressed. Since i was young i was told i have to succeed, become a doctor or a lawyer. I've self harmed before- and have being doing so since i was 7. I dont know why. I self harmed until about 3 years ago when my mother found out and cried- she was really angry and so i stopped. I have so much to say. so many problems i just dont know where to start. I do know that ive had it. I really cant do this anymore- im trying so hard to please everyone, and now i keep failing. I havent being studying for my exams, and i have another one tomorrow. My parents are really mad because you need a A- average to get into law. I've failed stats and am only getting bare Bs. I use to do well. But i cant. Even when i did bad I would try, but i just cant anymore. I dont want too. I just want to sleep and stay in my bed. I really as over dramatic as it sounds want it to stop. But i cant. because im scared. Im scared of the pain that will come physically. Im scared of what it would do to the family i hate but love because they are all i have got. Im scared because what if i dont succeed? I want help. I've told my parents but they deny it- they say im labeling myself, that i want to be "sick". I cant ask anyone else. It would just be too embarrassing and no one will understand. I dont want to be judged. I just want help. I need to get over this, because I dont know how much longer the fear will outwigh the pain.