im going to leave my computer on. open. and im going to go and pretend to be okay and play pool. but im not okay. i told my psychaitrist today that i had a plan. i even told him what it was. and he didnt help me. ive got an aching feeling in my eyes like i want to cry but just cant. i hate this. i wish i could say goodbye properly to people. but i dont have the opportunity. which is saddening. but the world is better off without me polluting it. im so sorry.